Alone but Not Lonely - ep. 1 - YouTube

Good morning guys, it's Sid and welcome back. 🎵 So. 🎵 Let me explain. I didn't post last week. And to be honest, I didn't think anyone would notice. But actually, quite a few of you guys did. And it was actually so sweet, because I was like, wow, it mattered to some of you. So thank you guys. The reason I didn't post is I was just in a slump. Last week, when I was kind of in this lonely mental state, I was thinking to myself, wow, like, you live alone. You're alone a lot of the time, that's so lonely. But then I realized being alone does not have to be synonymous with being lonely. You could be alone and have such a good time with yourself. So I want to take today to just have fun with myself, and just do things that I really love to do. I also feel like I'm kind of on FaceTime with you guys sometimes, and it makes me feel less lonely. This is like how I talk with my friends, so we're gonna have a fun day together.

早上好，大家好，我是Sid，欢迎回来。🎵 所以，🎵 让我来解释一下。我上周没有发视频。老实说，我以为没人会注意到。但实际上，真的有好几个人注意到了。这真的让我觉得很感动，因为我觉得，哇，对你们中的一些人来说这的确很重要。所以，谢谢你们。我没发视频的原因是我那时情绪低落。上周，我感觉有点孤独，心里想着，哇，你一个人住，很多时候都是一个人，太孤独了。不过我后来意识到，一个人并不一定得等同于孤独。你可以独处，但依然玩得很开心。所以今天我想要好好享受和自己的时光，做一些我真正喜欢的事情。有时候我感觉像是在和你们视频通话，这让我不觉得那么孤独。这就像我和朋友们聊天一样，所以我们今天一起度过一个愉快的日子吧。

First things first, coffee. Let's go. 🎵 Okay, so I'm at the coffee shop. And introduce yourself. Hi, I'm Eileen. And Eileen just came up to me and was like, I watch your videos. I was really awkward to come up, but. No, you were so sweet. And you're from Amsterdam? I live in Amsterdam, but I grew up in LA. Thanks for saying bye. You're literally so sweet. Thank you so much. I decided to come outside. I love them. Boys in there, they're so nice. I'm like, kind of friends with them now. One more friend of them. I wish I was friends with them, to be honest. But they play Alana, like, so loud. And it's so fun, like I usually love it in there, but I just. I don't want to get copyrighted. Wow, this is so awkward. I hate filming in public. I forgot that I hate it. You guys know, like, filming in public is just, like, hard for me. I'm trying.

首先，先喝咖啡。走吧。🎵 好的，我现在在咖啡店。自我介绍一下。嗨，我是艾琳。艾琳刚刚走过来对我说，她看我的视频。她说走过来和我打招呼很尴尬，但是你真的很可爱。而且你来自阿姆斯特丹？我住在阿姆斯特丹，但在洛杉矶长大。谢谢你过来打招呼。你真的是太可爱了。非常感谢。然后我决定去外面。我真的喜欢这里的男孩们，他们非常友好。我现在和他们有点像朋友了。我希望我真的是他们的朋友。但是他们在里面放阿拉纳的歌，声音很大。那边真的很有趣，我通常也很喜欢在那里，但是，我不想被版权警告。哇，这真的好尴尬。我讨厌在公共场合拍视频，我都忘了我讨厌这一点。你们知道的，在公共场合拍视频真的对我来说很难。但我在努力。

One of the main reasons I think I wasn't feeling good last week, actually I know this is why, is because I was just on social media so much. When I'm on it for extended periods of time, I just don't feel good. I'm, like, not being productive. Sadly, I don't have self-control, and I have to delete it. To not go on it, so. My mom also got me this book a couple months ago, and I wanted to start it because one of my friends said it was really good, too. And I usually read. No. I love New York. I decided to come to this little cute neighborhood. I wanted to just read here for a little bit because it's quieter for over here. That's all I have on my teeth. Not going on social media today. I'm sorry, you just, like, helped my mood be so much better.

上周我感觉不太好，其中一个主要原因，其实我肯定就是这个原因，是因为我一直在刷社交媒体。当我长时间使用社交媒体时，我就感觉不舒服，感觉自己没有效率。可惜的是，我没有自控力，所以必须把它卸载掉，才能避免使用。几个月前，我妈妈还给我买了一本书，我也想开始看，因为我的一个朋友说这本书很好。而且我平时也会读书。我爱纽约，决定来这个可爱的小社区看看。我想在这里读书，因为这里比较安静。这就是我脸上的表情，今天不再上社交媒体。对不起，但是你真的让我的心情好太多了。

I'm eating. I might go to snack recently. Actually, this has been my snack for, like, probably the past year. I get these little thin pretzels from Trader Joe's, and then I have some little baby carrots with some hummus. All three of these together, it's just. dream. dream combo, you can tell. I love this hummus. I'm feeling a lot better today, honestly. I think just not being on social media is something that I really needed. It's so important to take breaks, and I forget to do that sometimes. Social media definitely, like, I think affects everyone differently, because some of my friends aren't like me, where they get kind of compulsively comparing to other people. But when I'm just, like, on my phone for too long, and I'm just scrolling endlessly, I feel like I just compare everything about me to everyone else, and then I feel bad about my own life when I shouldn't.

我正在吃东西。最近我可能会去吃点零食。其实，这大概已经是我过去一年的零食了。我从Trader Joe's（全食超市）买了一些薄脆饼干，再配上小胡萝卜和鹰嘴豆泥。这三样东西搭配在一起，简直就是梦想组合。你可以看出我多么爱这款鹰嘴豆泥。老实说，我今天感觉好多了。我觉得不再使用社交媒体是我真的需要的事情。休息一下真的很重要，但有时候我会忘记这么做。社交媒体对每个人的影响确实不一样，因为有些朋友不像我那样，他们不会强迫性地与别人比较。但当我在手机上呆得太久，只是一味地刷内容时，我发现自己会把自己的一切和别人比较，结果会对自己的生活感到不满意，而这种感觉本不该出现。

I have, like, such an amazing life. It's just, like, the trick that social media can play on your mind. I've talked about this before. Like, if you guys watched my video three or four years ago, it was called Dear Teenage Girls, and I talked about how I struggled with just comparing myself online to people, because it's such a real thing, and it's, like, just an important reminder, I guess, for me to get off my phone, and just know that, like, if you're ever feeling bad about yourself on social media, you're only seeing someone's highlight reels, and everyone always says this, but sometimes I need a reminder, so I'm actually kind of just saying this for myself, too. I think I'm gonna go, actually, to this bookstore. I've been wanting to try out new bookstores in New York, because I feel like there's just so many of them.

我有一个非常美好的生活。但社交媒体有时会迷惑你的心态，我之前也谈过这个问题。如果你三四年前看过我的视频《亲爱的少女们》，你会知道我曾经在网上和别人比较，这种感觉非常真实。我觉得有时候有必要提醒自己放下手机。如果你在社交媒体上感到不开心，记住你只看到了别人的精彩瞬间。这是大家常说的一句话，但有时我需要提醒自己，所以我也算是对自己说的。我打算去一家书店，我一直想在纽约试试新的书店，因为这里有很多书店。

Wow, I'm just, like, reading so much. Like, I was reading in the beginning of this video, and then I'm going to a bookstore. We'll take the train there. I love bookstores. There's a specific feeling that you get in a bookstore that you don't get anywhere else. So, guys, that was the coolest bookstore I think I've ever been in. It was so, like, magical in there, but I didn't know that a lot of it was, like, acting playbook script type books, so I didn't find anything when I was in there. But yeah, now I'm just sitting here on this bench, romanticizing my life, everyone's looking at me. Wow, guys, I've been vlogging public so much today. Are you guys proud? I'm scared right now.

哇，我就是在不停地看书。比如在这个视频的一开始我就在看书，然后我要去书店。我们会坐火车去那里。我喜欢书店。在书店里有一种特别的感觉，是在其他地方无法感受到的。大家，那家书店真的是我去过最酷的书店了。里面的气氛特别神奇，但我没想到很多书都是剧本之类的，所以我没买到什么。不过，现在我只是坐在这条长凳上，浪漫地享受生活，大家都在看我。哇，今天我在公共场合录了很多 vlog。你们为我感到骄傲吗？说实话，我现在有点害怕。

I bought the grocery store because I need to get a few things for dinner. I got this new salad bowl, and it's like making me want to make more salads. I also got this milk. I usually don't even really drink like normal milk, but this is so good that I can't not. It's the little horizon strawberry milks. Like I said, I got this new salad bowl. Even something as simple as this has been, like, making me want to make more salads, so that's good for me. I've been making this Caesar salad with chicken. That's kind of been my go-to. Growing up, my mom would always coat the chicken breast and egg, and then brag crumb and flour. That's kind of what I like to do now, just because she taught me that way.

我去杂货店买了一些东西为晚餐准备。我买了个新的沙拉碗，它让我特别想做更多的沙拉。我还买了牛奶，平时我不怎么喝普通的牛奶，但这个真的太好喝了，让我无法拒绝。是那种小盒装的草莓味牛奶。就像我说的，我买了个新的沙拉碗，即使是这样简单的东西也激发了我做更多沙拉的欲望，对于我来说，这是个好事。我一直在做鸡肉凯撒沙拉，这已经成了我的拿手菜。我小时候，我妈总是先把鸡胸肉裹上蛋液，然后裹上面包屑和面粉。现在我也喜欢这样做，因为是她教我的。

I also, like, can't cook without FaceTiming someone. Damn. Well, never mind. Just seeing you in us, you and me. Oh. My salad is done, guys. Looks so small. This goes as bowl is so big. I'm so excited to eat this, guys. So good. I promise, guys, if you get a big salad bowl like this, you're going to love making salads like 10 times more. I got these at the grocery store. This is the most random impulsive purchase ever, because I don't even like raisins. Mom, look at the salad that I made. What do you see? What's your head? Chicken and, like, vinegar at lettuce? Yeah. Did you make the chicken?

我也是，基本上做饭的时候不得不和别人视频通话。天啊。算了吧。只是看到我们中的你和我。哦，我的沙拉做好了，大家看。看上去好小啊，因为这个碗太大了。我好期待吃这沙拉，大家。这太好吃了。我敢保证，大家，如果你买一个这么大的沙拉碗，你会喜欢做沙拉十倍多。我在杂货店买的。这是我最随机冲动的一次购买，因为我甚至不喜欢葡萄干。妈妈，看我做的沙拉。你看到了什么？你猜猜？鸡肉和生菜加醋吗？是啊。鸡肉是你做的吗？

Yeah. Oh my gosh. Wow. I'm going to eat this. Okay, guys. So it's actually two hours later. I ended up eating my salad. I don't know what came over me, but I just, like, cleaned my entire apartment. Like, I did a deep clean that I didn't think I was going to do, and then once I got into it, I was, like, I just can't stop. Like, I need to make it perfect. I really went at it, and I really tried to clean my floors. My little kitchen area is all clean. I have a pimple, you guys, that, like, it's starting right here. I don't know if you got it, because can you, like, see it that much? But it hurts. You know that those are the worst pimples when you can't really see it, but it just, it hurts. It's marinating right now, and I know it's going to be just this big. It's going to erupt on my face, basically. Okay. So maybe it is more visible than I thought it was. Ooh, I am going to do this. Mario Badescu drying lotion is, like, one of the best things that I use for, like, spot treatment.

好的。天哪。哇。我来吃这个。好吧，大家。其实已经过了两个小时了。我刚刚吃完沙拉。不知道为什么，我突然就把整个公寓打扫了一遍。我本来没打算做这种深度清洁，但一旦开始后，我就停不下来了。我一定要把它弄得完美。我真的认真地清洁了地板，厨房区域也都干干净净。我这里有一颗痘痘，开始冒出来了。我不知道你们能不能看到，因为它不是很明显，但是很疼。你知道那种最糟糕的痘痘就是看不太到但是很疼的。它现在正在“发酵”，我知道它会变得很大，基本上会在我脸上爆发。好吧，看来它比我想象的更明显。哦，我要用这个。Mario Badescu的干燥乳液是我用来局部治疗的最好的东西之一。

Oh, but I don't have a Q-tip. Okay, I'm just going to use these clean tweezers, because I need to get to the bottom of this. Sediment. Well, we did all we can do. Now we just go to bed and pray. So since I was just cleaning my apartment, I set aside a lot of PR that I've been collecting in a little pile over here. You can see it in the corner right there. And I've actually been kind of collecting this pile for a while. I know some of you guys saw this a few vlogs ago.

哦，但是我没有棉签。好吧，我就用这些干净的镊子吧，因为我需要弄清楚这件事。沉淀物。好吧，我们已经尽力了。现在我们只能睡觉并祈祷了。因为我刚刚在打扫我的公寓，我把以前的一些公关材料放到一个小角落里。你可以在那边的角落看到它。我其实已经把这个堆积物收集了一段时间了。我知道你们中的一些人在几部视频日志前看到了它。

I basically asked you guys where you would prefer me to, like, have a giveaway. If I should do it on TikTok, Instagram, YouTube. And most of you guys said YouTube. That's why I'm doing it on here. And it feels right, you know? Like, YouTube is at the end of the day, my home. Um, so I just have a few things that I wanted to give to you guys, because you guys truly mean the world to me. I can't even, like, express how much you guys mean to me. So this is just a little thank you. I'm so excited for one of you guys to get this stuff. I love these brands. They're truly the best. I just get so much PR sometimes that I, like, don't have anything to do with it all.

基本上我问过你们，想让我在哪里举办抽奖活动。是应该在TikTok，Instagram，还是YouTube上办。大多数人都说在YouTube，所以我就在这里做了。我觉得这样挺合适的，毕竟YouTube是我的家。 嗯，我有一些东西想要送给你们，因为你们对我来说真的非常重要。我甚至无法用语言表达你们对我的意义。所以这只是一个小小的感谢。我非常激动，希望你们中的一个能得到这些东西。我非常喜欢这些品牌，它们真的都很好。其实有时候我收到的公关产品太多了，自己也用不完。

By the way, this is all going to be for one person. But the first thing is this. This is the YSL Black OPM perfume. I have this perfume already, and I love it. You'll also be getting another YSL product. This one's not a perfume though. This is their mascara, I'm pretty sure. Yes, this is their waterproof volumizing mascara. And obviously, you haven't touched it, so. Okay, I'm starting to realize this is going to be a lot of YSL products. This one's so cool. These are their lipsticks. Definitely a variety of different shades in here, so you can try them out. Ever since middle school, I've been a big benefit girl. And these are two of my favorite products from them, the Hula bronzer and the professional. And you'll get even more benefit products because they sent me this.

顺便说一下，这些东西都是给一个人的。首先是这个，这是YSL的黑色鸢尾香水。我已经有这款香水了，我非常喜欢它。你还会得到另一个YSL的产品。不过这次不是香水，是他们的睫毛膏，我很确定。是的，这是他们的防水丰盈睫毛膏。而且显然你还没有用过它，所以。好，我渐渐意识到这会有很多YSL的产品。这一个也非常酷，这些是他们的口红。里面绝对有各种不同的色号，所以你可以试试。自从初中以来，我一直是Benefit的忠实粉丝。这是他们的两款我最喜欢的产品，Hula古铜粉和毛孔隐形霜。而且你还会得到更多的Benefit产品，因为他们寄给了我这些。

They collaborated with Scrub Daddy, which is actually genius. And they have tons of skincare in there, some makeup remover, face mask, setting spray. So you'll be getting this. I almost forgot, you'll be also be getting this from Benefit. They have a mascara. I've been waiting to give you guys this. This has been sitting in the corner of my room for, like, honestly, not that long, probably like four weeks. This is so heavy. This is a box just filled with Mario Badeski products. This is just so exciting because I'm just like such a big fan of them. And I use a lot of their products all the time.

他们与Scrub Daddy合作了，这真的是个天才创意。而且里面还有很多护肤品，有些是卸妆品、面膜、定妆喷雾。所以你们将会得到这些。我差点忘了，你们还会得到Benefit的产品。他们有一款睫毛膏。我一直在等着给你们这些。这些东西一直放在我房间的角落里，说实话没多长时间，可能大概四个星期吧。这盒子很重，里面全是Mario Badescu的产品。我感到非常兴奋，因为我是他们的超级粉丝，经常用他们的很多产品。

Like you guys saw, I just used their drying lotion. And I really want you guys to also experience them if you haven't. This comes with so much, you're gonna get a lot, but I'll just show you guys a few of them. It comes with the brightening eye serum, the same drying lotion that I just used. Some pimple patches, their poor minimizer, an overnight mask, vitamin C cream, their facial spray, which is probably my favorite thing from them. A cleanser, basically an entire skincare routine. So yeah, if you guys want to enter, what should you do? I didn't even think this far, honestly.

就像你们看到的，我刚刚用了他们的干燥乳。我真的希望你们也能体验一下，如果还没试过的话。这个套装里包含了很多东西，你会得到很多产品，但我只会给你们展示其中一些。它包含了亮肤眼部精华、我刚刚用过的同款干燥乳、一些痘痘贴、毛孔缩小精华、一个过夜面膜、维生素C面霜、他们的面部喷雾，这可能是我最喜欢的产品，还有一个洁面乳，基本上涵盖了一整套护肤程序。所以，如果你们想参与的话，应该怎么做呢？说实话，我还没想到这么远。

Comment below three things you're grateful for. It can be short, long, it doesn't matter. And if you want to bonus entry, follow me on Instagram. Just make sure to put your Instagram username in your YouTube comment. It's gonna be international so anyone can enter. Anyways, I think I'm gonna go to bed because it's 11.13 p.m. But I love you guys so much. Thank you for everything and thanks for watching. And I'll see you in my next vlog. Bye guys.

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